Oh, hey there… Update!

Wow. Hey. Hi. I’m still alive. Uh, this is awkward. I figured I’d share a few things and let you know what’s up, though. Better late than never, huh?

Things have changed in my life. I graduated from college in May. I just started a new job that has me working an 8AM-5PM shift every weekday. I moved into my own apartment. I’m prepping for the inevitable month of November when my student loan repayments begin. The past few weeks of my life have been…stressful to say the least. And anxiety-ridden. I cried a few times…*shrugs*

I mean, I moved ($$$), had to buy a bed to sleep in said apartment ($$$), I had to recently get stuff done on my car ($$$), I’ve had a lot of doctor appointments to finally get some progress on my health issues (timetimetime), got in trouble at work for all of said appointments (I think it was just a heavy warning and hopefully they won’t actually let me go…?), had one bad day in particular in there, also had a big scare about rent and had to ask my family for assistance (won’t go into to detail, but $$$). And tears flowed at certain points. Um, yeah.

But ANYWAY! I’ve been a little lost since…well, basically since my last post on here before this. Thus, I haven’t been reading too much and when I get in the groove, I just never feel like writing posts about them… I mean, even with life in general, I’ve been a little lost. Let’s not get into wondering what the hell I want to do or be in my life. Talk about ugh.

So currently, I have no idea where this blog is going. If it continues to go. I will probably still want to share some about what I read (but just look at my GR Reading Challenge – we’re in the 8th month and I’m behind schedule by 41 books for my goal of 100 this year! *wallows*). But maybe I’ll add some other stuff, if I feel like it? A friend of mine recently started a blog analyzing horror movies. Like, is there something I’d like to talk about more, maybe? Still soul-searching here.

I just lack so much motivation. I only recently got into a better mental state, but the recent stress is kinda ruining that. I need to try again once I am stable again. Anyway, I struggle getting myself to start things I may want to try. Like drawing. Also I have that hand aching issue, so there’s that…kinda limiting for drawing AND NO ONE WILL REALLY HELP ME TARGET IT AND FIGURE OUT HOW TO FIX IT?? Hopefully just strengthening muscles in that area will help. Maybe I want to try YouTube, but I’m a boring person, so what the hell would I even do? I want a paid job position were they just throw me into different careers temporarily to find something I actually enjoy. Sorry, small tangent there.

Anyway, that’s what’s up. Maybe I’ll share more about myself and my views in the future, too. I’ll work to figure it out. In the mean time, here is this post.

Ta-ta for now!

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